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chand vaghte pish dashtam ba melika chat mikardam ke migoft miyam iran hamon rozi ke man konkor daram mikhad biyado in harfaa yedafe digash migoft folan roz mikham bilit begiram bad porsid ke behet nemigam manam goftam delet miyad behem nagi goft ke na manam kheyli khoshal shodam az in harfesh ke yebare dige mibinamesh ama 2 shanbe sham ke dashtim chat mikardim ye harfi zad ke harmoghe behesh fekr mikonam ashk to chesham jam mishe sare in ke goftam mikhay biayu mirim birono in harfa bad hamin jomlasho bar migarde behem mige ( helna 69 (9/8/2009 2:49:28 AM): mohamad hame chi tamom shode ) akhe yani chi vase chi chera ba dele man injori bazi mikone azash miporsam jedi migi ya na mige are migam pas harfaye ghablit chi bod mige shokhi kardam bahat akhe khodaya in rasmeshe ke in dare ba man in karo mikone mani ke enghadar dosesh daram chera akhe khodaya raziyam be rezaye to omid varam ke ye roze dige bebinamesh chon kheyli behesh niyaz daram.
18/6/88

salam ino bayad dishab mineveshtam ama chon kheyli khaste bodam nashod.

mano ye chand s`ati montazere melika bodam badesh ke omad shoro kardim ba ham harfidan man az khaterate kelaso karae ke kardam migoftam melika ham az rozi ke dasht migoft va dirozesh ke rafte bod mehmoniu khastan biyan che etefaghi oftadesh.

hamin jori ke dasht harf mizadim goft ke mikhad yeki az axaye jadidesho neshonam bede vaghti ke didamesh vaghan daste khodam nabod hamin jori ashk mirikhtam engar ke chand sale nadidamesh haminjori dast mikeshidam ro manitor ke lamsesh konam dast mikeshidam roye soratesh ghorbon sadaghash miraftam ama heyf ke nemikhastam harfamo bedone yani khodesh khase bod ke nagam dige harfi az eshogho in harfaa manam hichi nemigoftam hatayeja goftam azizam badesh dorostesh kardam goftam melika.

nemidonam chera melika axasho neshonam nemide ya mige sms midam be iran ama man nemishnasam ye jori delamo milarzone ama omid varam ke chize khasi nabashe akhe ye moghe dasht migoft ke man az mohamad alli badam miyado in harfa va migoft ke harfi az on dige nazanam ama khodesh goft ke bahash michatidam goftam ke esmesh tolaniye va mikhad bege ali yani enghadar baham michatan ke esme on vasash tolaniye va mikhad bege ali khb kasi ke mige badam miyad ya harfesho nazanim mikhad esmesho kotah tar bege az nazare man in ja bayad goft ke dorogh go kam hafeze mishe hamine yadesh rafte bode ke chi ghablan gofte bode va hala ye chize dige mige man ke faghat to fekre inam zod tar hame karamo roberah konam bad bebinam bazam on moghe mige beram ya na mige man faramoshesh mikonam ama behesh sabet mikonam ke hich moghe eshghesh to delam khamosh nemishe.

harfaye mokhtalefi mizadim az in ke man chizi nagoftam mese mashine baba ina ya chizaye dige va khoshalim ine ke on jori ke mitarsidam nist fekr mikardam vaghan vasash besham ye gharibe yani hich tavajohi behem nakone ama khodaro shokr didam na onjori nist va hamin kheyli aromam mikone ke vasash gharibe nistam omid varam ke hamin jori ham bemone.

emroz jomas shode 3 hafte , 3 hafte az ini ke ba melika harf nazadam az in ke sedasho nashnidam nemidonam onam delesh vase man tang shode ya ama man ke vaghan delam tang shode bekhatere sedash bekhatere harf zadanesh ama hamash ke felan ye roya shode vase man.
melika omid varam rozi ke in harfaro mikhoni bavar koni ke chi be man gozashte toye in modat omid varam ke bavar koni harfamo chon az tahe delam daram barat minevisam.
asheghetam ta akharesh ta jaee ke beshe bahat mimonamo behet eshgh mivarzam ama heyf ke bavar nadari eshghe mano va migi marda saro tah ye karbasan eykash chenin fekri nadashti.
13/6/88

salam
emroz bade in ke az ziyaran omadam didam ke melika vasam ye matne ahango gozashte matne ahange mah asal khodaee ja khordam melika ke migoft dige bahash harfi az eshgh nazanam in dige chi bod vasam ferestad khob man hamishe az in harfash khoshal mishodam in dafe 100 barabar khoshal shodam ke bade on hame dava ino vase man gozashte.
azizam ye harfi zad ke kheyli omid var shodam goft ke age uni ghabol besham shayad mige shayad ye faraji beshe vase edameye dosti man ke kamelan omid varam ke bazam baham bashim va haem sayamo mikonam ke uni ghabol besham ke shayad in harfe melika beshe vagheiyat albate omid varam.
nemidonam chi bayad alan begam mohasho goftesh ke rang karde ama khob man ke nemibinam har kari kone man faghat hasratesho mikhoram eykas injori nemishod delam mikhad bebinamesh delam mikhad hamin ke mige mohamo rang kardam manam betonam bebinam ama moteasefane nemishe yani hich vaghti fekr nakonam betonam mese ghabl besham bahash.
10/6/88

emroz bade kelasam omadam ba melika chat kardam badesh man az kelasam goftam ke che balaee ostademon sare man ovord melika ham az londan ke rafte bodan goft.
goft ke vaghti kenare rodkhone timez bode yade man oftade va mikhaste manam kenaresh bodam fekr konam vase avalin bar bod ke jaee ke onam bod manam delammikhast basham na ini ke toye on ja bodam va khodamam lezat mibordam delam mikhast onja basham ke on hame ghashangi u ke hast kenare eshgham basham dastasho begiramo harfaye asheghone beham bezanim va vaghto begzaronim ama nabodam ama man inja dashtam be in fekr mikardam ke chetori betonam dobare hamon mohamadi besham ke melika mikhast.
akhe chatemon az melika porsidam ke age raftin londan addres ya tellesho be man mide ya na ke goft ko ta 1 sale dige ama ba esrare man goft ke na yani nemide behem yani mikhad hame in rabetaro ta 1 sal negah dare ke vaghti raft onja dige man hich rahe ertebati bahash nadashte basham yani vaghan sarneveshte man ine ke dige melikaro nabinam yani khoda mikhad ke man dige sedasham hata nashnavam.
omid varam ke melika hich vaghti mano faramosh nakone hata vaghti ke raft uni va vaghti ke kheyli irani mibine yade manam bashe.
mige ke man inja kheyli saram shologhe akhe melika jonam kojaye sare man shologhe mani ke shabo rozam shode fekr kardan be to va khateratemon va harfat ke chiya migofti va mikhasti mano tark koni behar hal dige to mano nemikhay va manam bayad kenar biyam ba in ghaziye ama in dalil nemishe ke faramoshet konam chon to avalin va akharin eshgham mimoni.
9/6/88